Stop

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Are you done now?
Did you tame the beast?
Find yourself somehow?
Looking West and travelling East
Stop this insanity
Stop the self-destruction
You are a walking calamity
A talking reduction
Of what you hoped & dreamed
Looking for love
In all the wrong places
You’re pushy, you shove
Connecting with no one
Lost in faces
Brittle and abrasive
Stop
Find a mirror
Connect please do
You’re killing me
You have my eyes
But I don’t recognise you

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Chezlin

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Breathed inhaled salted water
Choked the broken
Crazed honesty slaughter
Exhaled expunged the lie
You never loved me
And lied about why
Tasted textured tears
That filled seas
Declared: you will be alone
You determined those fears
And so deny devotion
Killed while passionately caressed
Know it was my soul ultimate
You intimately undressed
Until I stood naked
In every way
Exposed bared and vulnerable
I wished for you to stay
But if ever I was a beggar
Then I have forgotten how
It’s my pride you want to own
I leave you to your afflictions
And solemnly make this vow
I will walk alone
I will never bend
I will never turn
You will remember me
And the memory will burn
Whatever lesson you’re teaching
You gave me doubt
You left me needy
Here is the love
Your cruel & unusual punishment
I can do without
I will not lie for you
I will not kneel
I will not be trained
It’s from yourself you steal
Desired but not forgiving
Until humiliation came humbling
Until nothing remains
But love without the loving
Never Again ~ But, I loved you
And that’s something

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20 May 2016 ~ Remember

Let it Hurt

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It hurts to see your picture
So I made you my screen saver
It hurts to remember your words
So I made them my status
I have lived long enough
To know
The joy of confronted pain
It’s how I heal
It’s how I will love again

I Love You

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I love you
With all that entails
With my needy heart
And my head off its rails
My ever erratic heartbeat
On Slow
In sync with your quiet
Because this is your life
But for me this is War
And tranquillity
Left me wanting more
Inside sunshine or rain
I’m learning how
To live with my pain
To live with a wisdom
Of simply being
I love you
Always have, sight unseen
Until we met
And spoke
And you wanted nothing
From me
Nothing that I couldn’t give
I know I learned
From your gentle kiss
Upon my cheek
And so found real sleep
Sift through disasters
To find rest from the trenches
Love masters
The words I speak
In passionate dimentias
Fallen so deep
And legs entwine
So proclaim
A touch steady
I know nothing more
Than this
A moment when I realise
I am My Happiness
My many battle scars
The demons I have faced
I stand tall, hands on hips
Survey Battlefloor
The truth on my lips
Strategically interlaced
My Battlefield Life
Each door wrong
Until I made it right
And finally withdraw
War keeps no score
I needed just this floor
I needed the distance
To tear down defense
And win the war
At Love’s  Persistence

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Come into my parlour

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Come into my parlour
Said the girl to the guy
A need to feel some magic
Defeating what was shy
A little bit old fashioned
She blushed when he stepped in
But certain when he kissed her
Her parlour was ripe for sin
So she extended invitation
Knowing what she knew
She opted for relevation
And didn’t care about the view
There’s no place for modesty
If she’ll claw and bite and scratch
Honey you will realise
You’ve more than met your match

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All Intention

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I thought
She cannot be happy
She has my Love
And he has my heart
And wherever they may be
There will always be three
Closer to my flesh
For an age we remained
Closer to choice
Then no longer the same
Wife and kids
In a brand new frame
My stronger voice
Confidently forgives
But, I cannot reconcile
The you you are
Without me and child
The time we had
And now the time apart
It does not hurt
Not anymore
The man I loved
Gone years before
He, who had my heart
No longer exists
It’s me beyond any pain
It’s me who permits
New patient plans
Or cessation of thought
Loss forgets to mention
That amongst things taught
You have your new life
But
I have found redemption

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Some Other Song

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No butterfly tummy
Instead an angry wasp
When love turned to Ashes
Empty without grasp
I gave you intimacy
I gave you rest
Never asked you to need me
Just a little tenderness
You are unavailable
You are offline
Attention given elsewhere
Attention that should be mine
Now I want you out of here
Now I want you gone
If it’s butterflies I’m searching for
I’ll play some other song

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