It’s a sad sad lullaby
And baby’s already dead
It’s a sad sad goodbye
When we put love to bed

And moon crescent, wane grow full
We stand in winter light
We hold on tightly still
To moonbeams that crash and spill
When Jack kicks Jill – down that hill

Into rose garden
Into forest green
Into love forgotten
Where pain rules supreme

Where do you lead?
Your light that flickers, bedside bleed
Rose pricks, forest lost –
Fairytale disaster
Happy ever after
To storybook lie, happily denied

Faerie princess, take moonbeam ride
Come home soon
I’ll wait though I’m tired


For Kayleah


I Am


Truth is I am not right
I make mistakes
Then make it my fight
I have had company
And I’ve been alone
I’ve been homeless
And I’ve had a home
So I keep busy
I make something from nothing
Insomnia makes me dizzy
At the back of my head
Sleep stalks seeking entry
But, you are Always present
Predator cracking mirrors
Self ordained sentry
Soot lashes in slivers
I Frame the things you’ve said
During your stay at Condo Grey
Eviction “Get the Fuck outta my head!”~ Ignored, you dutifully stay
Surviving and reportedly fine
Most of the time, but
I am your bruised cheeks
I am your tenderness
I am your electric noise
I am your bad choice boys
And I am our silence
I am the fallen blade
I am your Sunday high
I am every Fuck you gave
I am your baby’s sigh
I am every goodbye
I am you almost brave
I am you insane
There is no formula
I cannot calculate, or
Define denied development
That Loves as it gives up
I am my Yan & my Yin
I forever thirst
That Cursed burst cup
Give up before I begin
I release before I catch
Teardrops grin in pain
I gratefully light this match
And I ~ Burn burn burn
I am your laughter
I am your breath
I am your freedom
I am our death



Animal is Female – Did you know?


Change is coming
It rides without mercy
Like apocalyptic horses
Foaming with surety
I’ll be running
I’ll be turning
I welcome the hurting
I usher in the night .
This cataclysmic burning
Breathed deeply
Finally I am learning
Even a tamed dog
Can incite her Master
You didn’t spare the rod
And now I come faster
I bite the hand that strikes
And; growl my laughter


Come into my parlour


Come into my parlour
Said the girl to the guy
A need to feel some magic
Defeating what was shy
A little bit old fashioned
She blushed when he stepped in
But certain when he kissed her
Her parlour was ripe for sin
So she extended invitation
Knowing what she knew
She opted for relevation
And didn’t care about the view
There’s no place for modesty
If she’ll claw and bite and scratch
Honey you will realise
You’ve more than met your match




I should pretend
Pretty in lipstick & rouge
I said
It doesn’t matter to me
And you are excused
I cannot love you
I floundered – did some crazy shit
When I was waking up
And, I did not realise it
Growth in crazy stops & starts
Made me bolder
Careless with others hearts
Selfish after selflessness
An adjustment I still welcome
After too many lonely nights
Bad luck cornered denied sun
Made me colder
Until Summer just a euphemism
For feeling warm
And satisfaction no surfeit
In a morsel of bread
In never feeling fed
Made me lonelier
Than an empty bed
Anywhere to lay my head
For a time
Longing for a home
That died in that flood
When the storm shook me
And forsaken all, freed me
Took everyone left to need me
When even God believed
And gave me legs that walk
And eyes to see
And a mouth that could talk
If only
To take me
If only
To teach me
To stay
Some lessons
Not meant
To be learned
This way
But, it matters
And you have no right
To love me
If intention only a minute
It matters you know I’m right

I matter ~
And I am worth the fight

The Battle is Real


The wind carried a stench
Charred meat turned
My heart you would not eat
Salty air lingers
Caresses my cheek
I cannot move
Zombie eyes and fingers
Heat that puts me to sleep
Of words I cannot speak
The distant death bell clatters
I am not my intention
The outcome is all that matters
Sporadic giggle in hyena vowels
Of love I could not save
Drill the path to hellish bowels
Acidic turned sacred mountain
Beneath an ancient dust
Yet ~ Move my feet I must
Numb with disbelief


Like true fanatics
She believed every line
Like true believers
She had Faith she’d be fine
She tried to teach you kindness
But, you could not understand
I think you wanted happiness
Just not by your own hand
Contentment isn’t easy
You see me, so you will know
Revenge will never free me
It will come from letting go
He who hesitates is not lost
Some thought went into it
Bravely accept the apology
See an unwillingness to quit
When I cannot lead by example
Then remember to forgive
Mostly what I wished to do
Is to love the life I live
I ask only that you are ready
Give me time to turn around
Please hold the mirror steady
If I am frightened by what’s found
Give me time to love the crack
The splintered piece of She
I want to love you back
Reconcile Truly
The reflection of Me

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You Will Not Be Excused

You are careless
In a world where you should care more
You dare too much
Then complain I don’t answer anymore
You push so hard
Try to impress
Admit it
You do not know best
And; I accept no less
Than what is guaranteed
But, you leave in stealth
Not quickly planned
I know your tell
Like the back of my hand
You expect respect
That I refuse
I cannot respect
What’s is so used
I am
I didn’t wish for this
Or anticipate
A time when we would come to hate
Or necessity conjugate
When many fires burned
And I was too late
With the lessons I learned
When I picture you
Your lips cry your life
I am not moved
I deny your right
My back is straight
Since I removed your knife
You were careless
I am no longer confused
I am improved
And; you will not be excused

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An Arrangement

I fell into you
When we met
Fated design
At the right time
Right place
The space in my head
For an affair
Of the mind
I listen
Your life fascinates me
The time line
I’m content
With an arrangement
Not meant
For forever
And no lies
To devastate
You seem surprised
That your hypnotic eyes
To me don’t mean love
I’m too tired
To explain
That I had enough
And it means
Get complicated
I am passion
And control
And No anytime
Suits me fine
As we speak
I care for you
What you’ve been through
I understand
But, know I won’t demand
So if we don’t kiss
There’s no kiss and tell
And, when you are ready
I will wish you well
And thank you, too
For the gift of you

Posted By PastelPoetry from WordPress © 2001

Snapped on the Wire

I stand on a ledge
Tippy toe fire
Tipped too far over
Snapped on the wire
Bounced back and forth
Sure footing is fought
The price was too high
I snapped on the wire
The moment I was caught
Believing Fairy Tales
Until I stumbled and fell
Into this idealistic haze
This is not my ending
This is not my quiet
‘Til I snapped on the wire
I had never been higher
And death odds require it
It is between you and me
And what I can never be
If I’m saddened by loss
And that I can’t remain
I stay snapping on the wire
As it infiltrates my brain
By snapping this wire
Somehow I am contained
There’s gotta be some spillage
There’s gotta be some work
And if you’re on the other side
Stay there, away from hurt
I never meant to poison
Not from my tomb
Not from my heart
Still I snap at this here wire
Draw in tight to draw apart
No leeway, it is gone
The balance can’t be won
I know I’m falling over
And, have been for so long
Just let me keep on falling
One more Snap, too tightly wired
And at last, I will be done
One last snap, I am so tired

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