Touching Magic

I am not of this world
My fists unfurl
And nights hold wonder
I am not of this world
I cannot hold anger
I cannot linger
Any longer
Than necessary
Enchanted
By the beauty of beat
Under my feet
I move above the ground
Though searched
And never found
A promised love
Enchanted
Nevertheless
By these people I meet
In and out the street
Where I grew up
Enchanted
I confess
Even with little magic
Even with a God
Who does not answer
I believe
Sight only imagined
But, I’ve felt His hand
In words I speak
I am crushed
Beneath
Huge banners and purity peak
Still enchanted
By this hope in me
I wish too loudly
And it broke free
I let it be
and still sigh at a moon full
Cry when my womb died
When I loved too soon
And had to release
Enchanted, perhaps
A bit less so
Now that I know
that magic is old
It has no boundary
Except those we seek
I close my eyes
Enchanted, ancient
These arms too patient
And at crossroads
As the blood flows
And the land snows
Me in, me out, me under
Above the cords of thunder
Enchanted, remain
With me forever
This is a stain
A type of love and lover
I am not of this world
If with this love I cover
Your every sin and blunder
Enchanted
By the time
I was here
You were near
My dance partner
Bare footed and protected
By magic and ever after

Safety

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There’s safety in numbers
In not been alone
I’d have a plus one
If you’d answer your phone
There’s safety in secrets
Though no guarantee
A secret is as safe
As the person you believe
There’s safety indoors
If the locks are in place
But, even boarded up
I can feel fear’s face
There’s a safety in a lie
If by omission meant
But, If he can’t shut up
Omission is bent
There’s safety in stories
In sharing our history
I retell for perspective
Feel free to ignore me
There’s safety in nothing
I wish I could lie
The trick, my darling
Is to look me in the eye
There’s safety in love
When it is done just right
So far, I’m still fearful
And, alone every night
So far, I am safety
I stay slow, I lay low
I lock all I see
And so far, for safety
I befriend only me

 

A Soldier’s Birthday

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4am – I guess I’m a day older
Don’t know when
But somehow I’ve folded
When I’m stopped
When I’m locked
In awkward conversation
Why didn’t I turn out amazing
Like they predicted
Instead, I Became afflicted
With the business of life
Became addicted
To a man as his wife
Left success
Left a mess
I can’t fathom a guess
Of my 1st wrong turn
or that worm of concern
Wriggling, In my grave
At the age
At that stage
When I should have been glorious
Or of Shaken fist
victorious
Instead, I ran to hide
And life locked me inside
A vice like grip
or a banged up lip
And my pride stripped
When strength tripped
And I fell once too much
But, I’ve felt the heat
Of the Queen’s seat
I may not be all I wished
With certainty failed
But, Despite all of this
I Remember this detail
The Crown was never mine
I’m doing just fine
If that clock strikes 12
There’s nowhere I need to be
God made only one of me
And then He broke the mold
Predictions are nothing
Just Gambling at a race
I could change many things
But;
Not that look upon your face
Come close, as I whisper
Yes, I guess I’m a day older
I am no Queen, never been

Instead, you made me Soldier

Hindsight is 20/20

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I wrote a hundred words for breakfast
Prettied my heart on a plate
You declined it,
So many times more
Quick to anger and complicate
But that’s before
A lifetime ago,
Whatever, now, you think you know
I’ll deny that I kept score
I’ve learned to let go of hate
Only I regret I wasted wishes
On a love devoid of kisses
Though I may revert
When I sit alone to greet the dawn
My memories do not hurt
My heart and mind do reconcile
Like my glasses upon the bed
Moments gone now forever
And years washed from my lifeline
When eyes had no need for forever
When with no difficulty
I could read every line
A bill, a poem or a letter
With clarity now, is how I see
Grateful tears hastened maturity
When you began to forget me
Now the poems that I write
Are for me, are of night
Or;
Of sunshine and light
And the days that I am alone?
These, they are my relief,
They say hindsight is 20/20
I guess that’s also my belief
My vision somehow is complete
Is of time, mind and heart
I am not opposed,
As the story goes
Of these things that make up sight
In acceptance comes a beauty
And, I am seldom now contrite
I have done my duty,
I have lived the gift of my life

Hushed


Hushed Voices
In the next room
rise and fall,
though words sound small
The end too soon
Tries to recall
An opening, a ridge, a view
To a beginning
Converse spinning
A coping, a bridge, when new
Hushed Voices
In the next room
Mine urgent, pleading
Yours distant, misleading
Become loud voices
The end too soon
Become loud choices
As I leave the room

Menopause

Treacherous body

Denied one more try

Maligned inside sorry

I stopped asking why

Shorted what’s mine 

I’ve only known worry

Yet survived the fire 

That sums up my story

Faint lines trickle 

Creases align

28 day cycles 

Now out of time 

Turned inside out

Red runs no more

Time is a trickster 

With greater in store

Womb to the tomb

I will endure

There is no promise 

Only the ache

Once more I have given

More than I’ll take

Happy Birthday 

A birthday cake

A sticker, glue 

Discarded wrapping

An opinion 

And you

My Mother’s Blessing

Already I’ve broken ties that bound 

To you and to us and to that …..testimony

I was told I’m living your life

Same mistakes, same unwed wife

The lore handed down

Of a fortune teller’s words

“You will only find happiness ….Much later in life. A Contentment, A peace – but, you will have paid the price…”

When you left this world 

When you found your rest 

That end was not yours

Awake I kept Vigil 

And tamed a beast to best it

My Mother’s heart so rested

Though forever we entwine 

Her Blessings became mine

Mesmerised 

​Bruised where your fingers imprint

Upon my body

Tattooed forever, here is my soul

Hardly wasted

Figure eights on a page

In a link, infinity 

Lipsticked stained 

My perfume in your hair

Your lips that say “I love you”

Your Gentleness when you care

Summer light that arrives slowly 

Promises a new day

When I feel your eyes upon me

When you asked me not to go

For one week, one day…One hour 

Is the moment I chose to stay 

You write with fingers and sighs 

Trace the lines of yesterday’s lies

I open very slowly

I’m careful that way

And, darling it’s your desire

That makes me slip and sway 

It does not really bother you

My reasons and my doubt

It’s how I love your heart beat 

And, now to you so bound

Mesmerised 

As you walk across the room 

It never really stops

Our desire on repeat 

And, before I realise what I’ve done

I’ve succumbed, I have agreed

Ever doubtful, ever fair

I was willing 

We met there 

We stretch in satisfaction 

Ever regretful, now ever believe

Finally happy, finally content 

And, so I did not leave

You will keep me warm

I will sleep inside your our

And, if I can be enough

I’d like to be the place you love

Just Do It 

Hands resting quietly 

Too still and far too pale

Lips that never lied to me

Now spin out a tale

Indifferent lovers, many

Different loves, only two 

And darling, in that respect,

You were the winner 

Only you

I watch with breath that does not move

The lies I make you prove

So, if you feel me hesitate 

Walk away, don’t stay

Just do it

The questions never adequate 

An integrity that once set you apart 

Respectful misplaced, 

You didn’t hide it 

Thought our maturity could ride it

Though, 

You were Elsewhere 

I was Here

You, only You ~ decided that 

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